This is a nice strip...I still have the holiday blues...Merry Christmas everyone!

Year 2005 Assessment

This is my first blogging year and its great to be able to look back, online that is!
Over-all, I'd say its been a good year for me...lot of things happening in and out. For the first quarter, I get to deal with a lot of changes like dealing with new boss. On the second quarter, I said goodbye to an old boss. Third quarter, I was saying goodbye to the once new boss and for the remainding of a quarter, dealing with another new boss.

It's also about meeting new friends and people. I met new people in my new company... and when I say people, I mean like about 40 new people. It's nice to know new and fascinating people, just when you thought you've met all types. It changes your views about life and you get to hear new stories and experiences from a different set or group.

It's also about dieting and sports. Didn't lose anything this year but it was nice engaging in running and a few times in the gym for 2005.

2005 is also about having a new job and how to handle new challenges. I get to specialize in my field and add learnings...not to mention items on the resume! (sana magamit in the future...we'll see!). I also get to handle and develop new people. They were really great and I'm so lucky to have them for my staff...super galing nila...maabutan na nila ko...balang araw, nakakahiya na maging boss nila!

But most of all, this year is all about Tatay's death...I'm saddened by the fact I didn't get to say goodbye but I guess that's what's life all about.

My wishlist for 2006
1. I get to buy a new car (or at least a new stereo)
2. Triple my current pay (I wish!)
3. Be a star (As if!)
4. Get to see my sister in the States
5. Bring lola to Hong Kong (why not?Ü)

Let's see by next year-end.

Merry Christmas!!!Ü

It's Christmas time in the city....it just fell on a Sunday so there was no added bonus to the holiday. But other than that...the season went well. For this Christmas, there really was no shopping list for gifts. I didn't really buy anything for friends, or officemates, let alone myself. I guess I was not so much in the mood for shopping...it was different this year. It was a trial to de-stress myself..no shopping lines...no thinking of what to buy...no worries. I think I saved a few stress points on that. But then it happened, every morning, I would receive gifts from my staff, colleagues, my boss, my friends, even neighbors, even the prayer group committee...stop!!! It was all too much...I think I got more stress accepting those gifts than not shopping for anything. But at the end of it all...it was a good season. And I finally gave in and bought something for Carlo and lola on the 24th...my two Christmas buddies.

Mama spent her Christmas in Antique 'cause it's Tatay's 40th day from the day...what's that term? ...he rested on the grave? Anyway, it was a fun Christmas...we went to my lola's sister who came from the States... imagine... namamasko ang lola ko...baliktad na talaga...she actually bagged a lot...she had a lot of nieces and nephews. It's funny coz they remember my lola (their aunt in this case) when she was the one handing out the aguinaldos. I guess now, (it's payback time!) they are returning the favor.


Overall assessment...it was a fun Christmas...I partied with a lot of friends...it was my first Christmas with my new company, I had fun with my new colleagues especially with my staff, plus Gheng finally got married (haha!...that's for you Gheng).

I'm happy I had one post for the month...at least I made one post every month...not bad Ü Merry Christmas!

This is a website for a friend...a gift for her wedding...gawa ng brother ko...Check it out...www.rolandgheng.blogspot.com

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Tatay Passed Away

Last October 28, my aunt in Antique texted that my dad ate breakfast, choked and has been unconscious for hours. He was suffering his fourth stroke that time. He died at 1200 midninght, October 29.

Tatay left the house a year ago, insisting he wanted to be in Antique, his hometown...there he could sit on the sidewalk for hours and talk to the townsfolk for hours. There he could eat fresh fish everyday and not worry about artificials and preservatives. There he has fresh air. There he can engage in his favorite sport...cockfighting. He loved his hometown...so we let him go. He died exactly one year from the day he left Oct 29 2004 to Oct 29, 2005. It seemed he just wanted to experience life in his hometown for one last time.

No wonder, when I came to antique for the wake, there is a different kind of feeling when you are there. The place is a small barrio called Brgy Butuan, Anini-y, Antique. The people were all smiles and they don't regard you as a stranger. Everyone is welcome. You can go to any house and they treat you like family. It's 3 hours away from the city and the barrio is very primitive. There is the seashore at the back of our house and a scenic view of the mountain in front of the house. Tatay loved this place...he never got over it...

I will never forget or at least I would try to blog so I don't forget how we celebrated Tatay's burol. The mood was festive and we had relatives coming from different parts of the province. There was food, festivities, even videoke. And three days after we bury Tatay, we have a swimming party! (Too bad, I had to go back to Manila). Thing is, this barrio regarded death as a celebration, a festival. Not a gloomy and sad affair. They were sad for the loss but also happy that Tatay is ion a better place.

The people of Butuan are plain simple and happy folks. They do not wish so much for riches and glory. There is beauty in their simplicity. There is no stress and no rush to do things immediately...unlike here in Manila.

I think I just found a retirement place...I can't wait to be 60 Ü

Gained Four Pounds

So much for doing intense workout. I actually gained four pounds instead of losing it...yup..inspite of the south beach diet and the visits to the gym four times a week....I think I'm in the wrong program....or maybe, I'm doing it all wrong.

So this weekend, I pigged out...like major!...rice, pansit malabon, pansit palabok, ice cream...name it!

Well, at least I tried. my friend's wedding is this Sunday.

Intense Workout

For the past few days, I have been going to the gym and doing intense, cardio work-out for an hour. No miss, except last Wednesday. Even now on a Saturday, I went to play basketball and then went swimming for an hour. My arms and legs are sore but I feel high. My target date of Oct 30 to lose 15 to 20 lbs seems realistic. I lost 2 lbs this week (ang baba 'no). If I continue doing the same trend, that is, kill myself with exercise, I just might hit 10 on Oct 30.

Nice Sunday

I am happy to say that I had a very fulfilling Sunday today. First, I got to sleep until 10:00 AM which was the first time it happened in a span of two weeks time (sobrang busy)...how refreshing. Next on the agenda, I got to clean the car...as in, really clean the car inside and out...dami kong nakuhang lupa sa ilalim ng gulong. I think I was cleaning the car for about two and a half hours...grabe!!! Then I went to mass...ate tons of fishballs! and finally, installed Ragnarok online in 4 PC's! Wow...major accomplishment! It's about 920 in the evening...i think i'm hitting the sack, sobrang pagod...hay.

I mentioned to an officemate that I was doing this website...a personal journal...he was asking what was the site and I told him I don't give it out. He made a bet until Friday he can locate this site...no clues...well, good luck!!!

Christmas is in the Air

As early as September 1, I began to get Chrsitmas greetings. Amazing how Filipinos are...they say Christmas is in the air when the ber months come in. I our office (since I am in retail), we already have suppliers lining up to sell Christmas trees...indeed, another christmas and another year will be coming in...parang kailan lang...did I accomplish much this year? I better do something fast, like really fast, less than four months na lang pala.

What exactly did I accomplish for three quarters?
1. Managed to transfer to a new department.
2. Gained new set of friends.
3. Went hiking in Taal Volcano.
4. Set up my blog site

That's it...yun lang? wala na kong maisip na major...need to do more...pressure!

South Beach Diet

Today is my day 1 for the South beach Diet. I hope it works. Dami kong unlikely remarks na nakuha sa mere dieting. Things like, diet ba yan? Lakas mo kumain, mali diet, eto na lang gawin mo, blah blah...hello?!@#$%^&. Get your own diet kaya!!!! Pero in fairness, medyo nahilo ako sa gutom. Low carb, heavy on veggies...todo na to...might have to go back to the gym na rin...

My friend also told me she;s pregnant...Congratulations G!

Chinese this Time

This time we went to a Chinese restaurant in Roxas Blvd...Cafe Felisa? Am not sure...does not even sound Chinese...we had a mantis (lobster's cousin), chicken, chopsuey, shrimp, pork swimming in sesame oil and hot chili, and lychees for dessert....hmmm...I think I'll really grow big here...I need to do some workout.

Thai for Lunch

Today we went for Thai for Lunch...my new boss is super bait and treats us always to fancy restaurants. We had curry, crab rice, liempo and sweet and sour lapu-lapu. It was a real feast Ü He was ordering halo halo pa for desert but I just had to say no...it was already too much.

Hello World!!!

Hello World Wide Web! I'm back...after two months of busy schedules and adjustiments to a new job...I finally have time to engage in the internet...well, I'm enjoying my new job...here are some stories...First on the agenda...memos...I didn't use to write my memos before...i didn't know it can be such a tedious task at first. You have to give complete attention to detail (which I lack), as in! Spelling, typos, alignment spacing...as in everything....especially if your memo reaches thousands of readers and employees in all of mall branches nationwide....whew! scary thought(Ü)if you have a typo...

Second on the list...new friends...suddenly, I have a fresh network of new friends...just when you thought you've met all type of people in this world, you meet a new set...some you can relate to your old friends. You can say things like "I have a friend who acts just like you" or "Iknow somebody who speaks the same way you do" ...anyway, it's been fun.

Third on the list. A whole new world of learning. Now you I hear terminologies and processes i have never heard before...there's just too much information in this world...we just can't get enough of them.

And fourth, a new challenge. It's always refreshing to have something new. A fresh start. Back to square 1. Forget the past. Move on.

Food Poisoning Case---Investigative

I'm here in the house...lots of kids doing the internet so I have some free time to do my blog...

The case:
At 2 PM, Wednesday, June 22, I suffered severed stomach churning and turning and the most unexplainable yacking of my digestive track...in other words, sobrang sakit ng tyan ko!!! I had to go to my boss to ask for undertime (as in for the first time in 10 months, meaning its not habitual, kailangan ko pang i-explain 'no?). he said yes but not to gladly, asking if I had finished my work (Hello...I think I was almost fainting that hour...I said...i'll just give him an update but I really have to go home.)

So I went home, but I swear my stomach was really angry...when I reached Alabang to take another jeepney ride... I swear, I pucked in the side street...twice!...a lot!...Yuckk!!...Eooowww!!...anyway, nobody helped me...I was alone and this was the first time it ever happened to me...the people around me just stared, I think they thought I was drunk! ...I went to 7-Eleven...grabbed some wet wipes and went to Jollibee's CR to refresh and clean up...I was a real mess...grabe!

I went home with a fever...churning stomach and almost passed out. I was absent for two days from work...spent a few bucks for medication and had two terrible nights of bedsore, headache and stomach pains.

Possible Causes:

Cause # 1: I ate oysters and seafood kare-kare at Blue Marlin in Glorietta...am not sure if I'm not used to eating oysters or its my stomach

Cause #2: I was wearing this really nice dangling earrings that day and everybody was complimenting how nice I looked. They were all saying my earrings were nice or I looked nice...whatever...thing is...they were a lot....about ten..."nabati or nausog" ata ako

Cause #3: I had a visit from a cousin from the province in the office and she said I looked fat...uh-oh..."nabati o nausog" nya rin ata ako....

Conclusion:

I think 50% of my stomach ache came from cousin, she really has this strong effect on other people...it's actually proven so my bet is on her...30% would be from the people in the office...remind me not to wear those damned earrings again!...and 20% from Blue Marlin...I promise, never to eat in that restaurant again!...(But thank you Gheng for the free dinner)

Here's a picture of my idols! 

Mr and Mrs Smith

I watched a movie last night with my mom...Mr and Mrs Smith. It was a movie I was really looking forward to because one, I love Angelina Jolie, two, I love Brad Pitt and three, it was a great story line, judging from the trailer. I give it 8 stars out of ten. It was worth the money.

But after the movie, I felt a sudden sadness. Movies are glamorous and happy...full of action because they have to keep it exciting in a two hour period. I was thinking, why can't my life,or our lives be as exciting...you know, dangerous trips to Columbia, exciting trips to different places, buy all the gadgets you need and want, fancy cars...that sort of things...yes, I'm sour graping...give me a break....I can't be happy all the time Ü But then again, it's just a movie

Dear Badette

My boss and friend Badette is resigning to take on a different challenge in her life...she's going to be a full-time Entrepreneur...about time Badette, yan naman talaga ang talent mo...Many of us want to be in your status, sobrang nakakainggit ka. Anyway, I wish you luck in your new move (as if, kailangan mo pa nun). Sya lang ang tao na sobrang malapit ang pera, as in, kumakatok sa pinto nya...hinahanap sya, di na nya kailangang hanapin...sobrang effortless...and because marami syang blessing, lagi nyang shi-ne-share sa min. She would always treat us for lunch, merienda, cakes, donations sa Christmas party...name it...mapagbigay si Badette...that may be her secret to success.

We went to a lot of tough times together and I learned a lot from her. I owe her a lot to where I am. She gave me a good break and she was one of the few people who really believed in me. I gained greater confidence knowing that she trusted me...But like any good thing, nothing lasts forever...and this is the end of the road for us. I'll see you again on the next street kung saan tayo magkikita...I wish you all the best and again, thank you for everything!

Life updates

Been out of blog for a while due to internet problems in my house....anyway...I'm back...so what's up in my life? Not much, I guess, nothing but work...I'll try to break it down to different categories

Work: My boss and good friend Badette is leaving the company (this deserves a new post) . My other Boss is still concentrating on his "business plan" that he claims, would really blow our minds thanks to his good ol' consultant and
only, and I mean only friend in the planet. His other would be friend, a
secretary he pirated from his old company declines him for the 2nd, and I mean
two times...sir, pag ayaw ng tao, wag mo pilitin.

Family: Mom is continuing her studies in religion, Che is doing great in the US...new car, having dates, maybe a new apartment? carlo, is on his 3rd year in high school, Lola, her usual self and my tatay, back to his cocpit days
(that means, his healthy Ü)

Social life: Less drinking...not going out too much...rest for a while...give me a month. Have plans though to go overnight to a friend's house---pending.

Lovelife: Negative

Spiritual: Prayer meeting once a week, last Thursday, June 9 was the most recent. They wanted to start sunday school...pwede...

Plans in the near future: Get insurance.

Far future: Re-apply for my Us Visa, buy a car

Far Far Future: Buy a condo unit

Far Far Far Future: Travel the moon!!!

Resignation Blues

I'm feeling a self pity right now...uh-huh..now. I feel like I want to stay in the job but don't have much choice.

My friend Girlie called up and asked me to reconsider. She said the things we should check with our current jobs are:
1) are you still learning something new? Check
2) do you have friends in the office? Lots!
3)can you still do other things apart from your job? Affirmative
...Then she suggested that I stay, until I can get a replacement, that way, I still have bargaining power. Okay, Girlie wins...stay...until I can get another...after all, "Patience is a virtue"

Sabado Nights

Last Saturday, me the old gals guys and the "new guys" went to blue wave...o di ba, moving on na kami. Amazingly, they same the same stories as the old boys. Plus makulit din sila Ü At hindi pa kami umuuwi, nagpaplano na sila for next Saturday...hmmm...medyo magimik din ang mga eto...wala na atang katapusan...balik na naman sa dati. At in fairness, ayaw nila ng Blue Wave, as in, lalabas kami....Malate? Libis? Ü Sabi ko pa naman, magbabago na ko. Hehe. Todo na 'to...2nd chapter na ...

On another note, I hope you guys are enjoying your job hunting as much as I do. Lapit na rin sana kami ni Cha mag-end of contract para makapag-despedida party tayo to the max!!!

High Energy

I was still feeling a little low today. Yesterday, was my first Saturday without the tropa. You can really feel the sad atmosphere in the office. Wala ng makulit at magugulo...how sad... It was also the first time na wala kaming Bluewave moment on a Saturday...walang nagyaya for beer drinking...

So I went home and for the first time, I went home early on a Saturday...I'm not really used to this, going home early, that is, anyway, I slept at 9:00 PM. I was already up by 6:00 AM, still sulking, I decided to to walk the dog, yup, Usher, but it was really more of walking the dog-owner than the dog...he was running in circles I had to follow around. But amazingly, I enjoyed my walk and I felt super energized...so, I went back to the house, left Usher and got my basketball...okay! no boys in the court, most of the time, they hoard the damn place, so it was a rare moment and I grabbed the opportunity to play... I practiced my three-point-shoot out skills...okay, I admit, I need more practice...I only have a small 10% probability to shoot. The sun was up so i went home...but wait...it was too hot...what if i go for a swim?...nah!...why not?...okay, but only for a few laps...So I went to the clubhouse and went for a swim, wow...energy!!!!! Of course, today is also mother's day so I greeted my dear lola and mama. Then I went to mass. Whew..that was this morning, now its 9:30 in the evening and my arms and legs are sore...really sore%^$#@!, I think I will have a headache, what have I done? Look at that, the things I would do to counter sadness....well....that's life Ü...at least, now, I'm having fun, just ALONE this time, but fun Ü

Losing Friends

This week, my new found friends are leaving. As in, really leaving...gone..away... Their contract in the office expires and they have to go...as in really go...My drinking buddies aka out-of-town barkadas and madaling-hilahin-pwede-kahit-saan-ka-jamming friends...will be gone.

Years back, I would have neen terribly saddened by that fact...But now, at 27, I realize that people do come and go in our lives no matter what. They will come and give you a piece of themselves, and then they're gone...really gone. But you have memories of them and those remain. You can also be a better person after that or maybe, just maybe, worse than you were before hehe (but the chances are very slim).

Let me enumerate the number of friends who left me...there's high school friends, have not seen some of them for years save for one...Mameng, that is...There is also Elaine...my good friend from the old office who left for the States. There's B-anne who went to Canada...Paz in New Zealand...my other officemates that I see rarely now (it's more of me leaving them actually)...There's Jazz, also in Canada and need I say more, my sister and good friend also left me and headed for the US.

See? Everybody's leaving...as in, EVERYBODY...pretty soon, there'd be no one left here....as in, NO ONE!!! what a scary thought...erase...actually SOMEONE new will come..we build new friends who will give us new insights...I hope. anyway, life's too short to worry about that. To conclude everything I would just like to say, sometimes it's nice to be ALONE...right, ALONE Ü

Sabado Night

It's Saturday here, 1:00 AM...am here in Echie's condo, Taguig, drinking mango flavored gin...nice twist. Dinner care of AJ...imagine, a guy who cooks Korean beef and seafood pasta...get out!...sarap pare! Toxi's here, with his usual words of wisdom.

I'm staying overnight cause I'm drinking while writting this blog. I'd like to see my output the next day if you have alchohol loaded while writing a blog... nothing much I guess, except you don't make much sense.

Got to go...we're playing Taboo...

Ran a 5K Marathon

The office organized a Fun Run for a 5K Marathon. Being a self-proclaimed gym buff "kuno", I always engage my self to the TREADMILL whenever I go to the gym. I run, like really really run in the treadmill. Well, it's fun for me and I have developed strong muscles for my legs because of this exercise. So when the marathon was announced, Iwas excited and up for the challenge.

I registered and was given the number 006...i was proud...I was joining a marathon...but more than that, I was thinking of winning...maybe I can be in top 20...perhaps.

So I went to Roxas (the venue) last Saturday, April 9 for the run. I was there at 5:30 in the morning...excited...yes...There was a lot of people. They came by the buses. These were my SM officemates from other branches...yahoo!... I have many to outweigh, outlast and outrun. Maybe Top 30...perhaps.

On your mark...get set...go!!!...I heard a gun shot...and the shouts of people cheering and shouting...wait, I'm supposed to run...and I did run...I was even holding my car keys and my cellphone...I didn't have pockets...there were already hundreds in front of me...I was running, but I already saw I cannot possibly be in the forecasted top 20 or even 30...they were so fast. I never thought so many could run so fast. Overconfidence?...perhaps Ü

Anyway, 5k was a long but indeed fun run...I was panting in the track but I never gave up. My spirits even went up when I got a glimpse of the finish line. Moreover, there was an announcement on the megaphone..."Six minutes to get a free shirt for the marathon finishers" Yahoo!!!...I got a shirt...I was expecting the medal, but, this will do. Guess what, I was number 543...well, so much for forecasting top 20 or even 30...haha! My record was 35 min and 51 sec.

My staff who went with me finished the marathon, but his time was too long, the organizers were no longer there and could not care less of yur rank. Plus, he didn't get a shirt...I gave mine...well, so much for the souvenir.

Am I running again? Perhaps...maybe next year I can be at least in the top 400...or maybe, 200? Overconfidence? PerhapsÜ

Which Disney Princess Are You?et

Which Disney Princess are you?

Bad Saturday

I want to share one Saturday last week...it was March 12. I was driving to work, 5 minutes before I am officially late, when an MMDA asked me to stop and asked for my license. the verdict---swerving. I was in a terrible haste and told him, he can have my license...I just need to swipe my ID in SM 3 minutes away, so I won't be late. The MMDA was confused...I am leaving my license with him so I won't be late for work. I again reiterated, "Sir, babalikan ko na lang yung lisensya ko. Sa-swipe ko lang yung ID ko!" Still, unable to comprehend, the MMDA insists that we settle it once and for all...I again, told him, he can have my license... the MMDA, quite confused this time...asked me what my position was in the company...duh?...what does my position have to do with my driving...I asked him why? The MMDA, thinking I was a useless fruitbasket decided I can go...huh? anyway, when I zoomed away, I felt my clutch tick...true enough, 3 minutes away from the MMDA, my clutch was no longer working.

I asked the security guards in the gate to push my car to the parking lot. I went inside the office... confused... worried...what should I do? I called the gas station near the office and spoke with a mechanic...yes, he can fix the car. After estimating the cost of parts and labor, it amounted to an amazing P2500.00...wow...that is a lot, for me, that is. I went to my boss and borrowed some money.

Anyway, I got the money, bought the spare part and paid the mechanic...but after everything...I was a total wreck. I did not have lunch, I was staring at the ceiling and was plain too tired...what a Saturday!!!

Taal Lake Getaway! 

It's nice to be in Taal Volcano 

Referred a Friend

My contractual officemates/drinking buddies/friends would soon be going their own ways as their contracts expire. It would really be sad :( But then again, we can only be happy for the memories they gave us...me for this matter. I am glad to be in a circle of young minds...full of hope and fresh ideas.

I e-mailed my friends and asked for a referral in their companies. Amazingly, a lot of them replied and told me they did have a job opening. I realized that you just have to know the right people in order to get ahead. One of them, Michael, that is, whose contract expired last week, was hired after a week thru my referral...plus of course the fact that he really did well in the exam and interview. I am so happy to be a part of his career growth. Well, I have around 8 more jobs to fill...I hope I can place them. I never thought I could be an HR Manager... hehe... sounds fun.

Anyway, let me share with you some pictures we had during our trip to Tagaytay. It was swell...we went up to Taal Volcano. Two days after, there was a news on the radio that the Volcano is on red alert. Hmmm....the 4th eruption would have been a close encounter.

We got a new dog and named him Usher...I got him around the first week of February. I took Usher from a friend on a Friday which was a gimmick night. Not wanting to miss out the fun, I brought Usher to my drinking spree..haha...He was kind of shy at first...he'll get used to it Ü Anyway, here's a sample Usher's first night out with her new friends or should I say, Dog talk:

Friend 1: Wag mo palalabasin yan ng bahay, baka mabarkada sa mga pusa. Tingnan mo yung aso
namin, nuon nagbubukas ng gate namin...ngayon tamad na simula nung mabarkada.
Friend 2: Ganun? Mukhang inaantok na si Usher...
Usher: (No comment)
Friend 3: Anung tawag sa aso pag cross breed ng Bull Dog at Shitsu?
Violet: Ano?Friend 3: E di bullshit.
Usher: (No Comment)

Usher is now 1 month old, and my Lola is super happy to have her. She cooks ginisang corned beef for Usher and serves us with dry and blunt fried fish. Furthermore hindi kumakain si Usher ng malamig na kanin...so kami ang kumakain ng lamig, sa kanya yung bagong luto. Ooops, got to go and feed the dog.

For you Sheils....Happy Valentines!

I was minding my own business on a busy Tuesday afternoon, when I got a text message from my Mom. It read something like "Bwiset la na naman akong date sa Valentines. Shit!" At first I thought it was a forwarded message...then I got another text saying it was a text from Sheila in the US. As all my friends know, I lost my cellphone three times, thereby changing sim three times, plus the fact that I switched from globe to smart, so that makes it four. Plus another fact that I switched from line to prepaid, that's five...and for the times I did not have a phone I temporarily used my mom's cellphone, so that'll be six. Wow! So Sheila here, may be one of those people who have six of my numbers and used the wrong one...my mother's.

Now my mom, thinking the text was from my sister in the US (who by the way also changes her number lots of times...magkapatid nga kami! First phone in the US slippied in the toilet bowl, used two of her friends number, and now finally, her own number...so that's four...still, my record stands) Anyway, my mom replied "Hayaan mo, ihahanap kita"....Now Sheila here texted (and was forwarded to me) "Putang ina, anung ihahanap e wala nga, wala!" Now my mom here, reading this words knew, this is not Che...most likely Sheila and forwarded the message to me.

First of all Sheils, hindi lang ikaw ang walang Valentine...lang 'ya, wag mong murahin nanay ko Ü. Pangalawa, ihahanap ka nga nya, although kung ako nga hindi nya mahanap, ewan ko kung pa'no nya gagawin yun. Maniwala ka na lang. And third, this is a blog moment...may naisulat ako. Love you Sheils!

And to all singles out there...mabuhay tayo!

Everyday Life

Time I got in the office...8:59, usual stuff, papers and work. Then I was called for a board meeting...or should i say, "bored" meeting. I have always wondered what these meetings were all about. I used to be the staff and would stare at conference rooms and wish I were inside and contribute more to my company...exchange ideas, express my views, blah, blah, those kind of things. Well, I never thought meetings can be so boring. It's more of an avenue for members of the meeting to dress up and show the other guys they dress better than the other. Or the better they dress, the more power they have. It can also be a way to demonstrate how good you are in English. The more accent and flare you have, the more impressive. Or it can be one good channel to show how much you know what you are doing, how dumb are the other people who doesn't know and that you are indispensible to the company. Yup...they need to feel needed...hell, it was sooooo boring.

Anyway, I went out to lunch after that and tried to forget the terrible morning. Too many people trying to outdo each other...give me a break! Anyway, lunch was great, I tried to concentrate more on what other people do during lunch breaks...how they eat, how they drink, who are their friends? do they laugh?...at least, this is not boring....

By the way, trying to look for a condo for investment...as if! I think my mom wants me out of the house...she's scouting for my place...haha!

Growing Up is Hard to do...

It was a Friday...my staff and the fresh grads in the office are going out for beer and billiards...they asked me if I want to come along. Being a manager in the department, sometimes its hard for me to just say "yes" and come along. Yes, I wanted to come, but whereas before, I was always the life of the party and promoter of gimmicks, now, there are now consequences to consider. First, my boss discussed with me before that I am too friendly. That is, I have to draw the line between staff and management. She says, in the future, they would be too comfortable with me and it'll be hard to manage them. I do see her point. In fact, even my other friends say that. But how? I can't help but talk to them like... well, like friends. So sometimes, I have to act unfriendly hehe. Second, am I being a bad role model? Where bosses seem to be always prim and proper, I cannot seem to get over being fun loving...would I lose their respect in the process? I remember the days when I was a staff...I can go out without these two things in my head. Now I have to act like a boss in the office, and a staff when I'm out(if you know what I mean...major schizo!). Well, just so you know, I did go out for billiards and beer, and of course, karaoke. Hey, I'm only human Ü...

Violence in the Bus

I was on my way to the office yesterday and took the bus...mind you...these buses, travelling Magallanes to Baclaran are the fastest drivers in the country. Take note, I am a bus expert. I have travelled bus routes ranging from Valenzuela to Makati, Valenzuela to Baguio, Laguna to Makati, Valenzuela to Vigan, then Vigan to Pagudpod, bus routes from San Carlos Bacolod to City proper, bus routes from Roxas City to Iloilo (I think I spent three hours sitting there!), Iloilo to Antique and back, Caticlan to Boracay island, name it...tons of routes...but nothing, as in nothing beats these buses going to Baclaran (you can pretty much guess where I work...in case I become famous on the internet..ha!). Anyway, they travel at least 150 to 180 mph, considering this is an MMDA zone (by that, I mean, they are everywhere, in fact, I think they are all here). Wait, I forgot to mention, it should be non-aircon. Again, I was on my way to the office when the MMDA stopped us and said some violation on the 2nd lane...the driver argued and was a little upset. The passenger near the driver pressed the driver's honk while the MMDA officer was ticketing the bus driver. The MMDA officer approaches the bus and the passenger and the MMDA officer had a huge fight. She said she was a witness that no violation happened. A second passenger second emotions (did I say that right?) and creates an uproar. All the people were saying nasty things to the poor MMDA guy. Is this the trend nowadays? The whole bus against a law enforcer? La na talagang takot ang mga tao (No fear!!!) Well, I guess I should close this again with a lesson learned, "Bring the car".

Mr X Resigns

Mr X has been sad lately and the usual air and confidence was no longer there...hmm...did he finally realize his confidence was too high, or was it just my imagination? Well, you know me...my boss sometimes calls me Ms Tactless, I must learn the truth...so I went to him and asked him what was wrong. He tells me he just resigned as he got a better offer from another company...well, good for him. But he was actually sad...strange? He said he liked his work in our company and that he liked the people(including me)...uhoh...guilt feelings...after my misjudgement of his super high confidence...maybe he is just into positive thinking...too positive , that is. This is another blog moment as I have to explain myself again....lesson learned...Thou shall not judge...Good Luck Mr X aka Mary Magdalene aka Mr. Close Up...I hope you find what you are looking for.

4 Tardies in a Month

My company has just brought in a new HR and has imposed a strict compliance on tardiness rules...which is, tardies are not to exceed 4 times in a calendar month...oh dear...it is only the 17th and I already have 3 tardies! Ohuh...help, help,help! Tardiness has always been a problem of mine, ever since...I don't know why. I am simply amazed by people who never fail to be late...ever. I mean, I had previous officemates who has been late only once a year...duh? how did that happen? Or worse, never a single tardy in a year. I think that was one of the reasons why I wanted so much to have a business when I ventured for an internet shop...it was so that I can come to work any time I want. Well, I did get my shop, but had to close due to a wrong location (thus suffered tremendous losses...but that's past)...but thing is, I still had to be early in the shop...otherwise...you miss out on the early customers. But at least, that's a pressure to myself...not from the company! What I'm really tring to say is, there are 365 days in a year...4 lates x 12 is only 48. 48/365 is only 13.15% which is a small percentage. So, give us a BREAK!!! Anyway, have to sleep now, so I can wake up early and not be late.

Mind of a Fresh Grad

It was breaktime in the office and I decided to take my break with the boys and have a small chitchat. These "boys" are again fresh grads, hot from the grill...fresh from the fire, armed with all the necessary tools they would need to prepare them for the corporate life. So I ask them "How do you find corporate life?"...The answers were a smirk, a smile, a snort?...well, one guy said..."We never thought it could be so boring, we expected it to be something more like what you do"...wow...did I hear that right again?...somebody thinks my job is actually interesteing. Funny, if you asked me the same question, 5 years ago, I would have answered the same way...a smirk, a smile, maybe a snort...but now, things have changed. I love what I am doing now...maybe its because it is a better job or maybe because I have matured in some way and I learned to appreciate whatever it is that I do...or maybe both...or maybe, I'm getting older...that's for sure! Anyway, its nice to know that these people now look up to you and you now serve as their role model (ugggh!!! damn, I'm really getting old)...well, they invited me to go drinking this Saturday...maybe...it's fun being with them... maybe not...I'm a role model....haha!..well maybe up to two bottles, perhaps?...perhaps...

Birthday Blues

Birthdays are supposed to be happy moments...but there are times..and I mean lots of times where we dread birthdays...why?
1) We are one step closer to the grave. One year older means a greater probability of dying due to old age
2) We have to treat so many people, especially if we have so many friends...and thus, we can damn run out of cash.
3) The sick pressure where everyone just looks at you and says through their eyes, "hey, your biological clock is ticking."
4) You look back to your life and realize...I have not accomplished much, not saved much...not done much etc..etc.
5) There are now blogs where you can pour out your sentiments to the web. Pathetic? Maybe...

500% Confidence Level

It was a friday yesterday and one of my staff, who resigned few weeks back was celebrating her final day. She invited me for a karaoke night to celebrate. I said yes. Now, Mr X asked me if I had any gimmick for that night and if I can go with the boys. Knowing what I knew, I said I have another set of gimmick and I can't come with them...case closed...but no. He asked me where I was going....hey, this guys confidence level is 130%... I said it was a secret...case closed.. After a few minutes, he came up to me and said he found out where I was going and asked why I could not bring him to my gig (wow, 180%). I politely replied, I was just tagging along and I asked him to ask the celebrant. Now Mr X had never ever spoken to my staff/colleague....I thought he would never have the guts to invite himself. Now I think I misjudged him, confidence level rising to 250%. After a while, it turns out, he spoke with another collegue and asked if he can tag along. Naturally, being good natured, a person would say..."Ikaw bahala". he came up to me again and said..."Ma'am, sabi nila puede daw akong sumama"(notice how he interpreted "kaw bahala" as "puede akong sumama") I then told him again, you have to ask the celebrant. (Uh-oh, confidence level 320%) So he tells me "Ma'am...bakit iba ang sagot nyo? Sabi nila puede akong sumama. ikaw ata ang ayaw akong makasama." And I thought, this guy is really cunning, he can really manipulate his way in...with matching smile. So having no choice, he tagged along. I was quite in a bad mood, not because I did not want to have with us, but the way he manipulated himself in. He would not accept no for an answer nor take a hint that, hey, don't push it....confidence level is truly at 400%...but knowing he got his way and that he can talk people into getting what he wants and that he can do it again next time...he has an amazing 500% confidence level!!!!*&6%#@!)(!!!

I tried to be in a light mood so as to enjoy the night. I had two beers and a great karaoke night minus that incident. I drove home and related everything to my mother about Mr. Close Up with 500% Confidence. Now my mom is a religious person who always try to do good and tries not to judge other people. Now, knowing the fact that Mr X aka Mr Close Up is into immoral affairs, I thought my mom would take sides with me. She listened to my story and tells me...we should not judge him for what we he is . Maybe he is lonely and wants to get out...far out! Then she adds..."Look at Jesus who mingled and made friends with Mary Magdalene...It's hard to imitate Jesus...you have the same case."...wow....Mom, is really, really....I don't know...way way far! Anyway, lesson learned..."Don't go out drinking with people you don't know".

Interesting Revelation in the Office

In my workplace, we usually hire "temps" or contractuals for the job. These guys, and I mean boys, work for 6 months in the office. There are about 7 new boys in the office and I was able to make friends with them. It's cool being with them...they are fresh grads and they are still full of hopes and dreams...they have fresh ideas, creative minds and they're super fun to be with. Today, one of the boys invited me to go drinking in a place near our office. Being one of the boys, I accepted the invitation. These boys would talk about their work, college experiences and of course, women. When we started talking about women, things began to heat up. Since I was a woman (I think), I'm a little careful with their reactions and listen intently to their discussions. One of the boys, Let's call him Mr X started talking about the girls he met. He tells us they are usually high profile women that looks for "companionship". Ringing bells!!!!...did I hear him right? It sounded like he was getting paid for the service. I started to interview him..."Are these older women?" He laughs...."How do you manage your expenses if they are high profile?" He smiles and says..."They usually pay." Uhoh...am I hearing it right? Is he actually admitting to me he performs some kind of escort servicing or sells himself for sex?

So I went home, with some beer in my head...bothered and confused....how do you deal with an officemate whose into escort servicing? Hmmmm......

New Year...new me

New year...January 1, 2005...new me? I hope...

New Years Resolution and Goals:

1) Go to the gym at least three times a week

Last year, I weighed 148 lbs. I was unemployed and out of shape. Then by some stroke of luck, I got a job...with one condition, my vain boss wants me to lose weight...hell I needed the job and it was a damn good offer...so fine, I swallowed my pride and tried to lose weight. Amazingly, I did lose weight and I felt good. I lost 12 lbs! Now I'm conditioning myself to be a gym addict and really enjoying it!

2) Be more positive towards money....clear all debts and believe
money will overflow this year.

I want to pay all my bills and save money

3) Lesser gimmicks...from 3 times a week to once a week

My new job is so exciting...everyone is married and goes home early. Now I don't have to go for coffee everyday...Starbucks can be damn costly.

I must focus on this new resolutions for this year. I think it's enough to keep me busy...new year..new me..new blog...i think i'm going to enjoy this one.